♥ Saturday, February 16, 2008
haiz....got injured again............haiz.........m i so that kind of person that cant be trusted......haiz........i think i really changed alot.........i become more and more untrustable.............. got injured becoz one of my family member just dun trust me.........and my frens trust me more.....shouldn't it be the other way round ?....i know them when i m born longer than i know my frens....they should trust me more.......i know its my fault that i didn't get into sec 5 this yr and i m trying my best to study now.........for now this is really true ...........but y he just dun trust me at all.........i really think that i m really left out in a way and nt left out in a way......left out in a way...is when my sisters are having more than wat i have.....that i dun mind.....but nt left out in a way is like.......they are just giving me less freedom for my own things......basic things that i m doing even......and no matter how hard i try.....how hard i work for it.....they just dun see it as how they have been seeing it for the past 17 yrs of my life..........when now i m facing a situation that i m nt living as long as them anymore......they just dun wan accept the fact and believe it.........they just wan me to work and work and work.........for their benefits.......i m like their slave that is like working for them as and when they wan u to work.......money to them is important now.....my sisters to them are also important now........i m nuthing to them now.........i thank my sisters and my cousins who r helping me....but sorri the helps are to no use....i have to do everything on my own......with my bare hands.......earn my needs on my own now......doing so much work for them.......don't i deserve a rest?........do i need to work that early......i m feeling like i m carrying such a heavy bag now with work, studies, expectations from everyone.....i'm struggling now......i hope they understand wat i m facing ......i also wan to thank someone who is understanding....someone who i really love alot.......i'm glad that he is a understanding person..........will love u always:)..........
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