♥ Wednesday, November 4, 2009
im blogging again....after a very very long time....like about almost a month....stupid ppl hving spamming my blog with nonsense.....there are so many blogs in the world and its always mine....haiz....forget it....im blogging today coz im really tired of somethings within me and my grandma...
she doesn't wanna talk to me becoz of a phone call that i didn't pick up for her....
i noe its my fault for being so lazy tat time.....but i think......shes like alittle over reacting.......
i mean.......its just a phone call......and nt a word with me till nw from like weeks ago......haiz.....
maybe i was super wrong tat day.....i've already told her its my fault and shes still like tat.....i dun wan to becoz of her and must face her.....im nt going bak for dinner its becoz.....i tried talking to her like calling her name.....and asking her somethings....but she just didn't wanna respond.......
i felt like i was talking to myself.....so i thought.....maybe i shalll stop coming bak......since she doesn't wanna like talk to me....then maybe i dun appear infront of her.....she may feel better....and i think.....it did happen......even if my parents talked to me about it.....and when i was so hard on my words......but i feel very very depressed......i just cant describe it.....it just hurt.....
every evening......i think and think and think.....i just dun feel like taking tat step to go bak....just wanna stay at home and maybe hv a light dinner or maybe to nt even eat at all for all nights....and also feel like crying badly......just hope tat 1 day she will respond to me......im nt like my grandfather......im just me.....if she understands and really respond......i will really thank god and be very happy.....
tml is my phase test(practical test) for my IT essentials.....
im abit scared and worried.....but i think i can do it.....
tats all le la...byebye....
God Bless every1
poke-ed on 4:45 AM